Last few moments in NYJC

Before I wrap up life in NYJC ( which was a fruitful one or rather, to be more specific, a rollercoaster ride ), I want to seize one of the last few opportunities that I have left to blog, as a student, using the school computer. So right now, here I am in the school library typing this blog entry which will probably sum up what I have to say about my eventful jc life.

Oh boy, I can still remember, vividly, the first few days when I was posted into Nanyang JC. I kept on thinking, why did I not work hard enough to enter Anderson JC (near my house, known for their academics), and how NYJC was very “cheena” and stuff, I almost asked for a transfer out after I got the posting of the provisional admissions exercise. But soon after I stepped into the school, I rubbished any thoughts of leaving NYJC, the culture here might be “cheena” , but I appreciate it, I have never experienced a school with such a large population that was as tightly knitted as Nanyang’s.

Well, life here has been tough, full of surprises and stuff, some pleasant, others, not so. But I’ve learnt to handle problems, big or small. During my life in Nanyang, I have answered quite a number of the infinite questions of life. I can’t help but to wonder how some people can’t seem to have anything and some people have it all, how some people feel, how others perceive life and death. Those are questions that are probably going to be left unanswered in my life, because it is almost certain that the future is becoming more and more uncertain.

Before I waste my life away, while waiting to be enlisted into the army, I would really appreciate having coffee at a coffeeshop, watching people go by and just wonder, how they would be feeling, who are those they love, what if they happen to leave their loved ones behind, how would they feel? And to whom do they seek when in need of divine help. For me, I can’t really seek for divine help, for I do not have a god. Sometimes I can’t help but to wonder, who is god? I recently watched a movie called “The island”, its quite an old show. This particular mechanic defined god as the person who would not do anything whenever u close your eyes and murmur to yourself, asking for help. So who/what is god? Only god knows…….. (hmmmmmm….???)

I just realized something, There was this one instance where Mrs Tan, (Gp tutor), said something which went along the lines of “as you grow older, you tend to ask many more questions”. I certainly seemed to have abided by her philosophy. I think many people will find what I am about to say weird, so brace yourselves. I can’t wait to find out how it feels like to die and to find out if there is life after death, if I will ever be reincarnated (if there is such a thing). There are just too many voids in life which science has not filled up. I am not sure if I will live long enough to answer these questions.

Oh well, lets revert to MY philosophy, I believe in only 3 days today, tomorrow and yesterday, so lets take one step at a time and not think too far into the future.

Tata..

BORED

I know i said not to blog till the end of the A lvls, but here i am, down with the pox, staring at the same four walls, confined till I am well.
recently i took this test on what my future will be like. though i think that it is not quite possible, but still, its something which i hope will come true.

You live in a mansion. You'll make $900,000 a year. You own a limo. Your job will be either a doctor or scientist. Your husband/wife will be lazy, spoiled, attractive and social. You'll only have one kid. You'll die at forty because of alcohol. Yes, you'll make it to heaven!

Another test i took....... cant remember what it was but here is the result...

You take the problems of others with you wherever you go. In your spare time you try to think of some way to resolve the dilemmas of your friends. You have an attraction to those who are in need and you feel that you always have to contribute in some way to make those around you like you. The respect of others is important to you.

Outing+bbq

Yesterday was well.... not as fun as i had expected it to be. however, the movie mamamia was the first musical that i had actually not slept in. It was funny and it had songs which i enjoyed.
Before and after the movie, we played pool, we went bowling... haah.... no mood to tell the whole story... haiz...
then go bbq... makan... lawl... sommore...
sian.... i really no mood type le... sorry... a rubbish entry.. i promise i will sit down to type a proper entry some time soon.

PRELIM OVER!!

YAY! prelims are finally over... bored of studying... i wanna just sleep lol! aiya... juz played a hell lot of CS... damn fun! tired lol... play so long haha...... nites... i will write a real post real soon

EMO stuff

I just discovered who are my true friends. In life, there are your typical hypocrites, posers and those who are pretty blatant about things, but the people i hate the most are the hypocrites. There was this period in time, where chance gave me THE perfect opportunity to see right through this person. Obviously, I am not going to reveal any critical information, so do not try to glean/infer/guess who the person is.
To be fair, I might have overead the situation and "spiced" it up, but judging from his/her past history and what he/her treated me these few days, i highly doubt that i am wrong.
I know i should not be writing this now, for tomorrow, my gp tutor beckons me towards the hall for the all-so-important GP prelims. However, I feel that it is really important for me to get this off my chest so that i can have a clear mind for tomorrow. To describe how i feel now in words is a mammoth task for me to do, but for the sake of you people reading my blog, i will attempt the impossible, with my limited vocabulary. To put it simply, I WAS a shackled dove, NOW i am liberated and i feel more at ease.
Oh well... now to prepare for the exams.

20.08.2008

HAHA! i juz wanted to blog coz of today! lawl... 20082008. nice date! lawl... and as usual... my 4d/toto no number come out for the dunno how many time.... haiz... maybe i was not meant to win in any form of gambling..

Some random thoughts

I know i said I will not blog for quite some while, but oh well... some thoughts just came across my mind and i thought i wanted to put it down in words.

I was thinking about all the fun we had during LTC (leadership training camp 2007) last year. There was this particular view that i just could not erase from my mind. It was the spectacular view from Kent Ridge Park, it was quite high up, but the view was very rewarding. It had the sea view, a few big ships and a few low lying houses with lots and lots of trees. The sea breeze was also very very, well...., nice? I believe it should be visited in the morning.

Anyways, many things have happened in the past few days, some of which I'd rather just keep to myself and some which i really want to shout out loud, but afraid to do so. Bleah... Dont worry, these things that have happened, good/bad or both, should nto affect me much.

One thing that i have the guts to mention, but unwilling to face is the very fact that the days are going by too quickly and there are many things which I want to do before i sit for my A's, go for my holiday and enter NS. It is just a matter of time whereby I will miss you guys, but life will go on. The best that we can do is to at least keep in contact. I know, this sounds quite emo.... but yes... thats how i am feeling now...

Got to go MUG hard for this A's, i have not been mugging hard enough, with 79 days left to the A's, i really have to start, before its too late. Well, i shall end my post here. Do not expect any new posts anytime soon, i think....